Go On Boy…

You had me, on bargain, I won’t deny that. But you made it so hard, so impossible to an extent, for me to stay in love with you. I simply had too much. I’ve grown so tired of all the pain you’ve caused me. If you cannot avoid doing things that you know would hurt me, then it only means you can very well afford to lose me.

Quoting Ne-yo: Please don’t worry ’bout me I’m fine, only gonna play the fool one time (though I know I played the fool too many times for you), trust me when I say, that I’ll be okay… go on boy…

Sigh…

I feel so sad….

About a month ago, I felt that I'm already used to the new things that had happened to me. Hence my aphorism: "change brings comfort after a while, it just needs getting used to."

Then again, what if things started to go back to how they used to be in the past. Should you welcome them all back? If you do, the same pain that you thought you have conquered already will all have to come back as well.. And it just feels so sad…

I also told myself that though history repeats itself, you need not play the same role over again. Or so I thought… Now, all I can see of myself is the same girl wearing that same old pair of shoes… And again, I'm beginning to feel the same kind of pain…

Afraid to be Happy

Have you ever had that feeling of being happy yet so insecure about what might happen afterwards?

For those who have gone through so much pain, you would surely know the feeling of being so afraid to go back to that phase of your life again (if in fact you have actually recovered from it already). That whenever there is reason for you to smile and laugh again, a voice in your head would ask how much tears would you have to shed after that moment of joy.

I never thought happiness can be something to be scared about. But now, I know that it can, in a way, frighten you. Sometimes, it is just better to ignore that little cautious voice inside you and set yourself free. Hence my aphorism—Ignorance is bliss.